My Brain Got Hacked

For the last two years I believed I could think my way out of negative thinking

I failed hard yesterday, and got a virus in my mind.

Police came to my house when I wasn’t there to issue a court order to my friend that we had been providing safe refuge from an abusive relationship.  

She wasn’t at our house, but at a very kind family’s home up north.  They had her come to the police station where the police held her until they baby that was up north at a safe home with grandma was released to the abuser’s parents.

We still have no idea how the law is being used to separate toddler from mother without any chance to hold court or have lawyers talk to each other.  

I was so full of negativity that I blew up at my own daughter for coming home 2 hours after she said she would be home.

I didn’t sleep last night and at 4:20am I looked at my phone and got up decided to write my daughter a letter. I talked to Natalie and just felt strong in the dark of the early morning that I also discontinue daily ScottsPosts for the time being.

I come to know myself well in the last 7 months of writing everyday.  I know that what I need right now is to be kind to myself and my kids and Natalie.  I need to think about 5 people, not what to say to 5000 people each day. I feel strongly about sharing with many, as it is my destiny, but for the summer, I am going inward to my fav 5.

As I have said before, my posts are prayers.  They are the hope and desires that I have for our world.  They are the things I want to say but didn’t when I was younger and more consciousness.  They are the things I feel and don’t fear sharing.   I will continue to write each day in mediation for wellbeing and to feed my AI with structured data about who I am.

Once a week, or maybe every other week I will share a post to ScottsPosts because there are events and moments and words I feel are important to share with all of you.

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Now, just a little bit about what I am doing day to day. I want you to know that all my time and energy needs to go into this for a season. I am working with a very specialized group of 20 individuals from all over the world to create a way for consumers like you and me to store all our health data as “memory” so that you can talk to any AI with a safe and secure conversation. 

We are meeting with many of the largest family offices and investors in the USA about our project because it could help millions of people instantly if we can create an experience that people trust.  We are working with the suicide hotlines to see if we can power them with machines doing the conversations with people in crisis. There are more people in crisis than there are people trained to help.

In just a few months we are ready to share all we have been working on for many years and I will be sending invitation to everyone here.  I am going to spend the next bit of my life doing all I can to give to this project so it can be the most amazing experience for you and people like the mom who just lost her child, my daughter, and me. Everyone is going through something and we need to be able to talk through it and get advice or just be heard.

Please don’t be a stranger, and email me here anytime you have questions or learnings you can share with me.

Happy 4:20

Scott Paul

home page of www.phi.health coming very soon.